ODE TO MY MADNESS

Ever tried to contemplate after a "round or two"??..Aptly said in the following lines further which made me write this work :)
"………..naa jaane kyaa ho jaataa, jaane hum kyaa kar jaate
peete hain to jindaa hai, naa pite to mar jaate………….."

 I can just think of heaving a sigh

as I cant seem to understand why

of you, thoughts still continue to get

when, me, you’ve tried to forget.

Even though I may walk on disasters brink

about you, I still cant stop to think.

Without you around that too in my life

there wouldn’t be happiness and just strife.

These days, me as an enemy, you may stare 

and towards me, not at all, show any care.

Yet, in no ways, can I think to forget

as knowing me, I know, that you regret.

Though without you, I know that am all weak

and everything looks colourless and bleak

my mind towards you, will always have a crave

as from my present misery, only you can save.

You, I know, consider me as some sort of a bane

as making me forget you, will get me only pain.

Yet why don’t you be there to give me some joy

that has always eluded me since I was a boy.

Hope I can come out of this insanity 

though I know that you are my necessity.

Myself, for everything, I know, got to blame

though without you, life wont be the same.

About my life hence, I’ve no idea what’s in store

and frustration will always be there to the core.

Even though with you I’ll never be with you today

a prayer, to keep you well, to God, I’ll say.