A FINAL ADIEU….

Those days when I was all alone

I had none to call as my own.

It was then we came across each other

and happiness, we thought, could gather.

You were really one of a kind

that talking to you, was always in the mind.

To you, my heart, I knew, I would never belong

yet to see or talk to you, it would always long.

Times whenever we used to talk or meet

was something for me, like a unexpected treat.

Whenever we used to be away from each others sight

atleast I used to miss every day and night.

For me, you were someone really special

though I know, you considered me as trivial.

Those days, in my mind, I always knew

I had to leave you, in months that were few.

So the time has come to bid you a final adieu

and it was a pleasure, all this while, knowing you.

Though each other we couldn’t, eye in eye, we didn’t see

atleast the memories will remain to give us glee.

Yet, go, go away, to a place that is far

and be happy, as you always are.

Let us, each other, slowly begin to forget

so that in future, we don’t have to regret.

Even though, you weren’t to destined to be mine

let God keep you, with someone specially, really fine.

Towards the end, I can only think, to you, say

that success in all you wish be there all day.

BRING HER BACK

Bring her back, oh lord, if you exist really in heaven

as I want her, my life, always , to be there to enliven.

Bring her back as I still want to lead my life

and want to disappear, all my existing strife.

Bring her back as I don’t want to suffer

as I know something, to me, she’ll offer.

Bring her back as I still can’t forget her face

and I cant endure, alone, this phase.

Bring her back as I am unable to sleep

as every night, my heart is out to weep.

Bring her back as tears are turning out to be blood

and one day, all the rivers, with it, will overflood.

Bring her back to me very soon

as that I what I want as a boon.

Bring her back so my life can be jolly

as I am ready to repent for all my folly.

Bring her back as always a note, am out to sing

as slowly I am turning out to be a bird sans a wing.

Bring her back if there is destined some mirth

and if she is really someone my worth.

Where are you?

Its been a while, a happy note, I sang
as hasn’t, from your end, phone rang.
Outside one hear the splatter of the rain
and to forget you, I’ve tried, but in vain.

Those days, I wished it would never end
as somehow, time, with you, I used to spend.
How much I used to think about you
never you, used to have a single clue.

At night, I always used to wish and pray
that beside me, you would be next day.
But never I thought one day, me, you would leave
thinking about which I sit and out to grieve.

Its been hard to take you away from my mind
as I felt always you were one of a kind.
Even if were to, in my life, have none
you will still be and remain my number one.

I haven’t been able to catch up my forty wink(s)
as about , night and day, I always continue to think.
After the rain, I wish, comes some sort of a rainbow
and your face, to me, it’ll come to show.

In life, If I were to continue to live
what all I did wrong, I ask you to forgive.
Though without you in life, it wont be the same
on my lip,forever, will remain your name.

….WILL LIFE BE THE SAME

Looking back, it was just that quirk of fate

that distance between us got create(d).

yet, if I took, on me, all the blame

I wonder, will life be the same.

If differences we have, I bury it under

so that , now at least, we can be together .

Obstacles, what ever they maybe, I overcame

I wonder, will life be the same.

Many a times, we might have fought

and my weaknesses, you may’ve caught.

But if I convince you with an excuse that is lame

I wonder, will life be the same.

If I were to tell you, now and forever, that it is you

that I want among all of them and the few.

Even if you are convinced that it is not a game

I wonder, will life be the same.

I've been walkin alone.....

Inspired by a poem that i read by the same name on ORKUT..

Far away from the city and the crowd
I wander here and there like a lost cloud .
All that I know that today am all alone
coz there is none whom I call my own.

I feel chocked and looking out for a breather
as I simply cant take the truth that’s bitter.
Of someone, thoughts still, I continue to get
when, me, someone has already tried to forget.

Things come back reeling to the head
as there have so many things unsaid
Guess, I would never get another opportunity
so that I could get some share of felicity.

As I think to give rest to my body that’s weary
its only hope that, from there, with me,I carry.
Hope this black cloud will have its silver lining
and will get fulfilled all sorts of my yearning.

..........Thinking about you....

As usual alone one day I sat
doing nothing in my flat
gently from outside the air blew
and I just started thinking about you.

Came to my mind,you, the first day I saw
I was in state that left in a feel of awe
Time had passed which was so few
that I had started thinking about you.

Many a time,we used to make time and talk
as well as hand in hand,catch up and walk.
It looked for a long time,each other we knew
which at night, used to make me think about you.

Life started to look so joyful and bright
especiallly when I had you by my sight.
Everyday looked, to offer, something new
all this was because I started thinking about you.

Alas,unfortunatley had to come a day
when you decided that you go your way.
What went wrong, I dont've any sort of cue
though always I was thinking about you.

Alone I walk and sit in the canteen
where we used to meet and've fun umpteen.
Food as I try hard to eat and chew
makes my mind to start thinking about you.

Life now has become very bleak
as its you whom I still weak.
Though in the bond has dried away the glue
it hasnt stopped my mind to think about you.

As I wander like a corpse
eyes gets moist and lets out sobs.
Anybody else I cant accept in leu
as my mind will always think about you.

Its been a while...

It’s been a while since we have had a talk.
It’s been a while that I told its you that I lack.
It’s been a while, to me, a message, mail you’ve sent.
It’s been a while thinking of you, I’ve thought to repent.

It’s been a while that I wished seeing a shooting star.
It’s been a while that I realized that from me, you are far.
It’s been a while that I felt it’s only you I miss
It’s been a while that I’ve had any share of bliss.

It’s been a while that without I realized life is no thrill.
It’s been a while that I found out that time is hard to kill.
It’s been a while that I remembered how once we fought.
It’s been a while that I didn’t tell that its you I always sought.

It’s been a while that I never thought would come such a day.
It’s been a while that I imagined never without you, I’ll stay.
It’s been a while that has passed February fourteen.
It’s been a while that thought I would’ve joy umpteen.

It’s been a while that on my watch I saw the time
It’s been a while that I’ve heard your voice chime.
It’s been a while a prayer, I’ve said for you.
It’s been a while that I wished that again I could see u.

DIL AAJ SHAAYAR,GHAM AAJ NAGMA...

Another Kishore da number which inspired me

Dil aaj shayar, gham aaj nagma
the phrase when I heard, I was in awe.
It reninded me of someone who was one of a kind
and for long has remained still in the mind.

Dil aaj shayar, gham aaj nagma
those days, in that person,what I saw.
May be sense of mine wasnt awaken
and took m eto a pit where I had fallen.

Dil aaj shayar, gham aaj nagma
looks foolishly, I was in coma.
Thinking that the mind would be at ease
little did that I know everything would freeze.

Dil aaj shayar, gham aaj nagma
even know its some sort of enigma.
as I thought somehow I would get glee
despite someone in my direction didn’t see.

Dil aaj shayar, gham aaj nagma
it looks that I commited this flaw
Guess I had a lot of, in me, expectation
that resulted in all this frustration.

WONT YOU....???

WONT YOU REMEMBER ME ONCE I GO AWAY?
WONT YOU FEEL THAT THERE WAS A LOT TO SAY?
WONT YOU MISS ME A SLIGHTEST BIT?
WONT YOU REMEMBER THE PLACE I USED TO SIT?

WONT YOU THINK OF ME WHEN YOU SEE MY NAME IN YOUR CELL?
WONT YOU REMINISCENCE THE TIME WHEN,BETWEEN US, WAS WELL?
WONT YOU TRY TO FORGET THE TIMES WE FOUGHT?
WONT YOU BELIEVE,TILL THE END,IT WAS YOU, I SOUGHT?

WONT YOU RECALL THE MESSAGES,E-CARDS I USED TO SEND?
WONT YOU FEEL THAT YOU NEVER SAID WHAT IT WAS FROM YOUR END?
WONT YOU ATLEAST A WHILE,FOR ME, LET OUT A SOB?
WONT YOU REMEMBER ME IN BETWEEN YOUR ROUTINE AND JOB?

WONT YOU THINK THAT ME, SOMEHOW, YOU GOT RID?
WONT YOU CONSIDER WHAT ALL TO YOU, I DID?
WONT YOU THINK THAT YOU USED TO ASK ME WHAT I HAD FOR FOOD?
WONT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT NOW I'VE LEFT YOU FOR GOOD?

WONT YOU ATLEAST FEEL A LITTLE SAD?
WONT YOU THINK THAT LUCK WAS BAD?
WONT YOU WANT TO BE A PART OF MY NEXT BIRTH?
WONT YOU FEEL THAT EVEN NOW,WE CAN GIVE EACH OTHER MIRTH?

WHATS THE USE NOW...??

Sometimes I think and feel that as I go on my way
that for a while, I wish for your sake, I stay .
But what’s the use when it is suffering for me
and eye in eye,we cannot and wont, anymore, see?

Did I expect to much, I sometimes wonder
and hence commited all this blunder?
But, now what is, by contemplating the use
as I realize that both of us are out to loose.

I know that there always will be scarcity
as without you,there wont be any felicity.
Yet when you have been giving me so much hurt
I know you will gulity that you had been curt.

What, to you, the future, is going to show
I wont get to see or in any way, to know.
What I hope, is that it keeps you always well
and with the situation and people,you can gel.

Just if fate decides to bring us back
and then we feel each other we lack.
Well, I hope that shall will never happen
even if he decides to give me hell and not heaven.

WHEN WILL YOU...

When will you realize that I’ve become a wingless bird?

When will you think of uttering, to me, a single word?

When will you feel to think of me, for just a while?

When will you turn towards me and give me a smile?

When will you feel towards that you must come near?

When will you banish what all I have as my fear?

When will you think towards me, be a little kind?

When will you show me the light when I am blind?

When will you consider of what all I did to forgive?

When will you think that my side you finally will leave?

When will you stop making me heave a sigh?

When will you thinking of telling the last bye?

When will you think that you can still be a part of mine?

When will you take me to the elusive cloud nine?

When will you ponder that we can still be together?

When will you realize that about you,thoughts I’ll stop never?

WHY...A WORK AFTER INTROSPECTION...

Why is that still about I think and write

even when you are nowhere around in sight?

Why does your thoughts come to me when am alone

that too when I know you've someone as your own?

Why was that fate made both of us, in life, encounter

when it knew towards the end it would be all bitter?

Why is that the past mistakes I repeated all over again

and even now iam still enduring the pain?

Why is that, on you, I had a lot of expectation

as though I didn’t know that it would end as frustration?

Why is that iam unable to to sit back and ponder

of what all I committed as a blunder?

Why is that iam still unable to efface

the picture of what used to be your face?

Why cant you, for the last time, clarify

so that I don’t have to let out a sigh?

Why is that till now I am unable to sleep

even when the mind has asked the heart not to weep?

Why is that I feel that one day, you'll come back

by understanding that it is me that you lack?

I HAVE TO....

I have to see that brings the new dawn

I have to realize its time to move on.

I have to admit that wasnt destined to be my fate

I have to sleep now as in the night,its quite late.

I have to slowly start to become sane

I have to my peace of mind,to regain.

I have to learn, who all to, in future I trust

I have to understand that this relationship has gone bust.

I have to think that all this was a rough patch

I have to start everything right from scratch.

I have to endure, all alone, endure this phase

I have to start forgetting her face.

I have to feel happy that no longer her, I'll get to see

I have to realize that will come back the lost days of glee.

I KNOW, ALONE, I’VE TO WALK THE LINE

Inspired by the John Cash's timeless classic..Can be seen and heard on this site: http://youtube.com/watch?v=krVACUbciJE

There was always that for me, joy

had evaded me since I was a boy.

So,when I don’t get whom I want as mine

I knew, alone, I've to walk the line.

Initially,fate gave me someone whom I thought who would give me glee

and later saw to that,eye in eye, we couldnt, at all, see.

So I knew that I could never be on cloud nine

I knew, alone, I've to walk the line.

Circumstances made her start acting like an ingrate

which made me wild and mind to get frustrate.

When I knew that she started to treat me worse than a swine

I knew, alone, I've to walk the line.

Knowing her now, I sincerely start to regret

as her face,its taking time to forget.

As I poured myself a peg after a round of wine

I knew, alone, I've to walk the line.

I WOULDNT HAVE LEFT YOU LIKE THE DUTCH BOY WITH HIS THUMB IN THE DAM...

I know that it is me who has to take the blame

and I've been keeping bent, my head, low with shame.

Well,even if, to be natural,trying to is what I am

I wouldn’t have left you like the dutch boy with his thumb in the dam.

Probably, on you, money and time, I didn’t go to spend

and never got to know expectations from your end.

Even though like others, I lacked looks and charm

I wouldn’t have left you like the dutch boy with his thumb in the dam.

To be in touch with each other, we had with us the mobile

so that never apart we could be, even for a while.

Even if the networks and signals were to get jam

I wouldn’t have left you like the dutch boy with his thumb in the dam.

Your face is still carved in my heart

and from my mind,memories arent ready to depart.

Though I know for me, the doors are close and you slam

I wouldn’t have left you like the dutch boy with his thumb in the dam.

You'll never know how much you are worth

as I wanted a part of your mirth.

Sadly,even if you thought all this was a sham

I wouldn’t have left you like the dutch boy with his thumb in the dam.

Now has come a time, when abuses,on me,you'll swear

and never think of showing me an iota of care.

Even if, those days, on me,you didn’t care a damn

I wouldn’t have left you like the dutch boy with his thumb in the dam.

ONE LAST TIME...

One last time,I wish I could see your face

as its something that I cannot efface.

One last time,hope I could,your hand, I hold

amd make you know things that have been untold.

One last time,time, I wish could go back

as we would know,how much we lack (ed).

One last time,thinking of the days of the past

when we thought happiness was there to everlast.

One last time,thinking about what went wrong

as with each other,we couldnt remain long.

One last time,ponder over what will happen to me

as never again, you may get to see.

One last time,give me the beaming smile of yours

as I havent seen that in many hours.

One last time,for what all wrong I did, forgive

as finally from your life, I take leave.

WHY IS THAT….,THAT TOO WHEN….

Why is that my mind still thinks about you

that too, wherever you are, I still have no clue?

Why is that I still think that its you, in life, I lack

that too when ,towards me, you have turned your back?

Why is that I still think of the first day of our meet

that too when it was, you, who came to me, to greet?

Why is that we thought we each could be others friend

that too when we knew that one day all this would end?

Why is that, when you asked, I gave you my number

that too, when I knew one day, I would realize my blunder?

Why is that we, started off our online chat

that too when hardly far from each other, we sat?

Why is that I started to think of you the first time we ate

that too when one day, differences it were to create?

Why is that I told you that I had begun to miss

that too when one day I would regret and loose my bliss?

Why is that I regret now, when you asked, that I gave you money

that too when I knew that you acted that here you were lonely?

Why is that I always told you, together, time we must spend

that too when I knew it wasn’t ok for you at your end?

Why is that I thought, on me, you had a lot of concern

that too when I dreaded one day, would be an u- turn?

Why is that you would always be there to give me glee

that too when about you, I knew nothing and was at sea?

Why is that I used to allow you to talk about your boss

that too when I knew all this would never help in my cause?

Why is that, on weekends I was ok when you were with family

that too when I knew it was a reason you gave me was silly?

Why is that, about me, I never asked, what you thought

that too when I knew that it was you whom I sought?

Why is that I believed in you so very much

that too when someone else I could easily search?

Why is that you have left me and gone your way

that too when I didn’t stop you or have my say?

Why that is you still inspire me to pen many a verse

that too when, in my life, you were there for so terse?

CONVERSATIONS BETWEEN THE HEART & THE MIND...

H: Heart, M: Mind



H: Don’t you think,feelings,you must tell her

instead of night and day,brood and suffer?

M: Hmmm,its that when am alone,about her, I think

and many verses, I sit and in her memory, I ink.



M:Dont you think that you always skip a beat

when you don’t get to hear while she is on her seat?

H: Hmmm,it is because she has remained in the mind

as she is really among the unique kind.



H: Don’t you think that you cease to be sane

despite she is out ot give so much of pain?

M: Hmmm, I think that she is being really curt

and offlate,doesnt understand,me, she has hurt.



H: Don’t you think that towards her, you musnt go

and an indiffrent attitude, towards her, show?

M: Hmmm,Its just that I do not have a clue

of what and how, things, iam supposed to do.



[The individual after paying heed to what the HEART & MIND were out to discuss]


Guys, I feel both of you work in tandem

and make me come out of this mayhem.

It will be some sort of a relief

even if it were to end as grief.

WHY ME??

I don’t know why Iam still chasing this dream

by making it run into many a tones of a ream.

Now that Iam defeated and as I lie

I can’t understand, this, to me, happening why.

I have been leading a life like that of a blind

as well as someone who has nothing in the mind.

Yet there is one thing tah ti do is just to heave a sigh

I cant understand, to me, is happening why.

So, God, I’ll always have this question

as, to me, you gave all this apprehension.

While I meet you above beyond the blue sky

I was made endure this, please tell, why.

Being stranded, I am finding hard to breath

and its as though, has been placed on me, a wreath .

Though it’s as good as am already out to die

I can’t understand, this, to me, happening why.

IAM STILL LOST….

It has been a feeling that is taking to sink

as yet about her, my mind, is out to think.

Even though, she has left me in a lot of pain

to forget, I have tried hard, but it all in vain.

I still think of the days that gave me glee

as in all walks of life, her, I could see.

A smile used to be always be on her face

which am not still been able to efface.

Like a captain, I thought, I could cross any tide

as thought I would have here always by my side.

She was someone who used to be my inspiration

as to work hard, day or night, used to be motivation.

Just when, to work, I thought had the zeal

was to turn my life’s fortune wheel.

Who knew that she would go on her way

by deserting me in an unknown bay.

Since I hadn’t anticipated what was to come

suddenly I got a feeling of being lonesome.

I began to wander hither and dither likes a ghost

and began to look for her as I missed her the most.

Thought never I, that someone sweet as honey

would one day make me go through all this agony.

I just begin to really think and really wonder

whether sending her in my life, God made a blunder.

I know that life without her is not the same

though will remain on my lip her name.

Time has come for me to, in life, move on

and put back what happened in the past as a bygone.

As ends the day and comes slowly the night

in the horizon, her, I don’t see her in sight.

If from God, I were to, ask as a blessing

It would be to end all this suffering.

……………OH MERE DIL KI CHAIN

Inspired by the timeless Kishore da classic by the same name..

The first glimpse of yours that I saw

had left me with such a feeling of awe.

Outside that day, as lashed heavily the rain

all that I could remember was the song “oh mere dil ki chain”.

Till then, I had been someone all alone

without anyone to call as my own.

Thought I would go away all my pain

as in you, I had hope, oh mere dil ki chain.

From you, I craved for that beautiful smile

that I needed to go for the extra mile.

Never thought I that you would become, to me, a bane

as without you in life, what I would be, oh mere dil ki chain.

But I didn’t know that fate had something else in store

by bringing lot of differences between us to the core.

Who knew one day our relation would begin to wane

and you would decide to go you way oh mere dil ki chain.

I know that I maybe not much of a Superman

but to get you back, I try what all I can.

You are to me, what to him, is Lois Lane

as I cant forget you, oh mere dil ki chain.

If, now or in the future, I were to say

let it be, late night or anytime, in the day

that even if I were cease to remain sane.

you will always be mine oh mere dil ki chain.

TO MY INSPIRATION…

This is about someone who has made me ink

many a verse about her, by making me think.

Though she is nowhere near me or in my sight

I haven’t been able to forget her, day or night.

It is something that makes me really sad

and think that luck, to me , has been bad.

Though we may see each other when we walk

words, between us, we cant exchange or talk.

I don’t understand why she is being so curt

by making me feel low and really hurt.

What she’ll stand, by this, to gain

I wonder by giving me all this pain.

Even now, I wouldn’t know if she has someone

as I haven’t gone, about it, from anyone, learn.

But in the mind, will always be there a haunting WHY

that to me who, now, been left high and dry.

Though, without her, I am out to endure strife

one thing, for sure, for her, is in store in life

that any of works, on her, I f she were to read

blood and not tears, from her eyes, would bleed.

This is about someone who has made me ink

many a verse about her, by making me think.

Though she is nowhere near me or in my sight

I haven’t been able to forget her, day or night.

It is something that makes me really sad

and think that luck, to me , has been bad.

Though we may see each other when we walk

words, between us, we cant exchange or talk.

I don’t understand why she is being so curt

by making me feel low and really hurt.

What she’ll stand, by this, to gain

I wonder by giving me all this pain.

Even now, I wouldn’t know if she has someone

as I haven’t gone, about it, from anyone, learn.

But in the mind, will always be there a haunting WHY

that to me who, now, been left high and dry.

Though, without her, I am out to endure strife

one thing, for sure, for her, is in store in life

that any of works, on her, I f she were to read

blood and not tears, from her eyes, would blead.

…….AGAR TUM NA HOTE

The original songs are a class apart..But enough for me to get inspired :)

Those days whenever we used to be together

never knew that, like this, that I’ll have to suffer.

As you decided to leave me and go on your way

I didn’t know how it would be agar tum na hote. .

Sometimes, I think my fate was really bad

as It took away all the hope, in me, that I had.

Never thought I would, like this, would come a day

that how I would think to spend agar tum na hote.

Though each other, we hardly knew

for time so less and that was so few

Your memories are always there to stay

I wonder, what they would become agar tum na hote

Now that life has become, for me really bleak

as its you whom I really, even now, seek.

Yet to him, whenever I always turn to pray

happiness, for me, is no use, agar tum na hote.

Aimlessly here and there, I hover like a ghost

as its you, that I miss even now, the most.

Though I am good as dead, I still have this to say

that life is never the same agar tum na hote.

……………..THE REASON BEST KNOWN TO YOU…

As I ponder about the first day we met

it is something that I cant, even now, forget .

Within no time, affection for each other, grew

I can’t say much as the reason best known to you.

You were someone who was one of a kind

and couldn’t be effaced, at all, from the mind.

There was something in you that I had seen in few

I can’t say much as the reason best known to you.

If your glimpse, even for a day, I were to miss

would make me restless and loose all my bliss.

How much, you, I missed, you’ll never have a clue.

I can’t say much as the reason best known to you.

Even now, I know, time is not too late

as to make amends, with you, I eagerly wait .

Till then, I can only sit with a cry and hue

I can’t say much as the reason best known to you.

HELLO….IS IT ME YOU ARE LOOKING FOR??

Just the title from Lionel Richie's song..See and hear it on www.youtube.com/watch?v=PDZcqBgCS74..Rest all mine ;)

Hello…is it me you are looking for?

as it is you, from my life, gone far.

I somehow lost many a night’s sleep

and my heart still hasn’t stopped to weep.

Hello…is it me you are looking for?

hard to believe that you were the star.

Everyday whenever the night turns into dawn

I detest as it reminds me that from my life, gone.

Hello…is it me you are looking for?

off late, in me, I am waging a civil war.

Iam unable to get even a single clue

of how I let you, from my life, go.

Hello…is it me you are looking for?

hasn’t at all healed, my heart’s scar.

The more about you, I sit and think

it drives me to the path of disaster’s brink.

Hello…is it me you are looking for?

will always be kept my hart, ajar.

As I write this, after work, this eventide

I just wished, that you were, my beside.

Do you remember??,well,i still do..

Do you remember the day I got to come across you?

Well, I still do, as what about me, you thought I’ve no clue.

Do you remember how much gaga you were over a friend of mine?

Well, I still do as I wondered what you had seen in that swine!!


Do you remember when to disturb me, you used to send a SMS message?

Well, I still do as I used to wonder why as we sat in the same passage.

Do you remember after leaving work, you would call and tell me to go home

Well, I still do as I would listen to you and go back even If I wanted to roam.



Do you remember the calls you used to give that in the morning I awake?

Well, I still do as when your call I used to miss, my heart would ache.

Do you remember what all you used to say to flatter me?

Well, I still do as I thought that you were there to give me glee.



Do you remember whenever we used to have an online chat?

Well, I still do as something used to be there to talk at a drop of a hat.

Do you remember whenever your mood I used to try to cheer?

Well, I still do as I always wanted you, with me, near.



Do you remember the e-cards I used to, at times, send?

Well, I still do though I never knew what you thought at your end.

Do you remember when I was about to go to my home town?

Well, I still do as you asked me to back soon and not leave you alone.



Do you remember what happened to me in the local train?

Well, I still do as it was fun at my expense which was your gain.

Do you remember the time you wanted me to come to the church?

Well, I still do as thought I, was over, for a soul mate, my search.



Do you remember the calls of mine you would not pick?

Well, I still do as thinking about it used to make me sick.

Do you remember that to see meet you I came to your station?

Well, I still do as I went back bitter and with all frustration.



Do you remember the night of the dandiya?

Well, I still do as I can’t forget what all I saw

Do you remember the last time I had my afternoon food ?

Well, I still do, as you had left my life for good.

THEN AND NOW….

Those days I used to, for the dawn, wait.

But now, I just wish, changes my fate.

Those days I used to wish for someone’s hi.

But now, I just sit, fume and let out a sigh.

Those days, there would be something for me to remember.

But now, I just, what went wrong, I sit and ponder.

Those days I still could see someone in the sky at night.

But now, I just don’t see anybody nearby in sight.

Those days I used to wish would never the time.

But now has gone away in life all the rhyme.

Those days I never thought me should leave.

But now, the bitter truth I just can’t believe.

Those days I used to wish, to spend with you, I get

But now also, you, I haven’t been able to forget.

Those days it was just that I wanted to hear your sweet voice.

But now it has turned out to be what I feel as noise.

Those days I thought how nice if the 24 hours were to extend.

But now, you don’t know how, without you, I try to spend.

Those days I missed you when I didn’t see you anywhere in sight.

But now I sulk that, has come true, what used to be my worst fright.

Those days I thought there would be there always glee.

But now you don’t smile even, me, you may get to see.

Those days I thought, I had, to you become well known.

But now, do you have a clue, how iam surviving me all alone.

Those days I wonder why I didn’t have the anticipation.

But now how much on me you had, for me, frustration.

Those days, to my mind, never came the question why.

But now our relation, we must, to revive, give it a try.

Those days I thought that you be there in my life.

But now I just see a path that’s full of pain and strife.

Those days in life, I thought with you, I could go ahead.

But now, without you, I am as good as someone dead.

LIFE WITHOUT YOU

As I walk aimlessly on the road

I wish that God took me to his abode.

I just have nothing, but to heave a sigh

as though am alive, its better that I die.

Those days, life had just one theme

that day and night, I used to dream

It was someone company's I always sought

despite the many times after we fought.

If my life I were to sit and rewind

I would know like her, it was, to find

She was someone who shone like a star

which I wanted even if it was too far.

As I got to, over time, her, know

I didn’t want to let her go

as thought I that she would in my life

and would go away all that I had as strife.

At times, whenever about her, I used to think a while

my heart would feel glad and make me sport a smile

I felt that finally there was some destiny

by having her so that I could have felicity.

Alas now, tired, I sit to wipe my tear

as never thought she would go away farther.

By deciding not to be by my side

she left me though I begged and cried.

If the next day morning, I wouldn’t get up to see

God, just make sure, for my mistakes, that she forgives me 

I just hope after all this, I get my place in heaven

wherein I’ll get something there for me to enliven.

Ode to musings in the local

PLEASE NOTE: A "LOCAL" in Mumbai, refers to the train that serves as a mode of transport..For more info, please check this link: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mumbai_Suburban_Railway..

As I got ready to leave from work for the day
I knew that I had to get back in a different way.
Stood there at the station waiting for me the Mumbai local
to take me back on a trip that, at one time, used to be special.

But this time, I had just had nothing but to heave a sigh
as I had to travel all the way from Navi Mumbai.
I knew, since it was a slow, I would have to pass many a station
and hence made me think of someone who has remained in imagination.

It used to be all the way from Vashi
would travel, everyday to work, she.
But it used to be only when the train crossed over to Mankhurd
that the cell range would allow our voices to be heard.

How she would maintain to remain firm and sturdy
I would wonder as the crowd would pick up at Govdandi.
Those days, sometimes to reach fast, I would know for sure
that she would have thought of taking a bus from Chembur.

During our talks, I would especially hate it whenever
the train would take off from Tilaknagar.
Because by chance, outside, if one saw
It would be the maddening crowds of Kurla.

She would always tell me how it was her felicity
by knowing me as approached slowly Chunabatti.
It would make me laugh when outside she saw someone like me
especially jumping out of the train as came by GTB.

I always remembered telling her a dream I saw
that as usual would be there a hell of a rush at Wadala.
Whenever that ‘dream’, for her, would end up as trouble
all that she had to do is to endure as approached Kings circle.

Moreover, it used to be some sort of a religious hymn
whenever to change the line, I used to tell while at Mahim.
All that she used to say then was a “hmmm”, “oh yeah”
though I knew that it was better to take the fast from Bandra.

But, as usual, she would continue in the train and call me at Khar
and make it feel that, for us, it was near, yet a little far.
As somehow she would have finally have to get to sit near Santa Cruz
she would have told me to sympathize her for the bruise.

Finally, I would have got to know that it was minutes away
and that it had almost set off from Ville Parle.
It used to make me feel so much joy and glee
that finally I would get to see her at Andheri.

Alas ,I go to realize that my dream
had run into many a ream .
Those days, it used to be like cloud nine
When thought that she was there as mine.

As I stand inside and the train gets a green signal to go
an important lesson, to all, it is all set to show.
Though people, in life, come and leave, by the dozen
there are a special few like her who cant be forgotten.

ODE TO MY CHAOS

Late in the night I am still awake

but am unable to understand for heavens sake.

As thoughts of someone come night and day

as all that I want is a word for her to say.

Days turn to night to days and has gone many a week

and its been long since I heard her, to me, a word, speak.

All this while I have been feeling so very low

and my feelings to none, I haven’t been able to show.

Since I don’t see her anywhere close or near

It looks like my heart has been jabbed by a spear.

Tears in the form of blood is out to ooze

as how to lead life am unable to choose.

I have been left in life, high and dry

and all that I can do is heave and sigh.

Till the end, our relation I tried to save

as she was the one always I had a crave.

Thinking of her, my heart is still skips a beat

and has gone away the appetite for me to eat.

Since there has been no sort of felicity

I just don’t how to maintain my sanctity.

Though will always remain on my lip her name

life is just not, without her, unfortunately not same.

Life seems to have lost its entire thrill

and time has come to a stand still.

Hope that one day will come a rainbow

and happiness in life, it will show.

Yet in that moment, I know, of bliss

her company is what I’ll miss.