IF I WERE..,WOULD YOU…??

If I were to walk by your side again one day

would you still a hi, still to me, again say?

If I were to ask from you for your special smile

would you give it so that it keeps me going that extra mile?

If I were to tell you how much I still miss

would you think of giving me the lost bliss?

If I were to tell you, how much in the past you meant

would you believe it rather knowing me repent?

If I were to remind you of your career’s initial days

would you still make time for me despite the rat race?

If I were to admit that loosing you was my biggest fright

would you still think on being in life, day and night?

If I were to tell you that life for me has lost all its zest

would you help me in enduring this life’s test?

If I were to tell you, for all my mistakes, forgive me

would you do that now atleast together we can be?

Why can’t we talk??

Every day in the morning whenever, I wake

I wonder why I must endure this heartache.

Of not getting to hear in anyway, from you.

and of the pain that am in, you’ve no clue.

In me, honestly there is a lot of guilt

and frustration reaches to the hilt.

I just don’t seem to get an answer

to the question where all I did err.

Without hearing from you, time is hard to kill

and has gone away, in life, all the thrill.

I have become a bird without a wing

that is out, woes to sing.

I know you are somewhere out there.

Yet my presence, you simply don’t care.

How much my heart is letting out a cry

you’ve no clue as I simply sit and sigh.

Yet, one last time, for God’s sake

pardon me for what all I did as mistake.

Lets forget what all happened in the past

and see to that now there is happiness to everlast.

ODE TO MY MADNESS

Ever tried to contemplate after a "round or two"??..Aptly said in the following lines further which made me write this work :)
"………..naa jaane kyaa ho jaataa, jaane hum kyaa kar jaate
peete hain to jindaa hai, naa pite to mar jaate………….."

 I can just think of heaving a sigh

as I cant seem to understand why

of you, thoughts still continue to get

when, me, you’ve tried to forget.

Even though I may walk on disasters brink

about you, I still cant stop to think.

Without you around that too in my life

there wouldn’t be happiness and just strife.

These days, me as an enemy, you may stare 

and towards me, not at all, show any care.

Yet, in no ways, can I think to forget

as knowing me, I know, that you regret.

Though without you, I know that am all weak

and everything looks colourless and bleak

my mind towards you, will always have a crave

as from my present misery, only you can save.

You, I know, consider me as some sort of a bane

as making me forget you, will get me only pain.

Yet why don’t you be there to give me some joy

that has always eluded me since I was a boy.

Hope I can come out of this insanity 

though I know that you are my necessity.

Myself, for everything, I know, got to blame

though without you, life wont be the same.

About my life hence, I’ve no idea what’s in store

and frustration will always be there to the core.

Even though with you I’ll never be with you today

a prayer, to keep you well, to God, I’ll say.

SEQUEL TO “MISSING YOU SWEETIE”

It is already been late in the night

and though you aren’t anywhere in sight

thoughts about you aren’t allowing me to sleep

and silently my heart has started to weep.

My life is slowly loosing all its essence

as lately I haven’t been able to see your presence.

It looks everything is starting to get bad

and making me feel even more sad.

For you, I may be a person who is nothing.

But, you, for me, is someone unique and something

as till now, I have not been able to efface

the picture of your smiling face.

God, if one answer I would like to know

is that why this phase I’ve to undergo.

It looks you too consider me as someone trivial

by making me undergo this painful ordeal.

If I were to get hold in my hand

some sort of a divine magic wand

I would make it do whatever I had to say

as well as make you beside me night and day.

Though, for you, happiness I wish for u in life

be there, in someway, for me, when iam in strife.

Someone like you, to find, is really rare 

and so be there, towards me, to show, your care.

So, come back to me, my sweetie, darling

Coz for you, I’ll always have my yearning.

It will some sort of a blessing or boon

If I get to hear from you very soon.

“MISSING YOU SWEETIE”

It looks that it’s been such a long while

that each of us spoke even on the mobile.

Missed call list, messages, if you were to see

nearly all would have been from me.


All these days, I’ve been feeling so low

coz, why u don’t want to talk, I just don’t know.

What you, I don’t know, stand to gain

I wonder by making me go through all this pain.


Those days, it was your face; I wanted to see

as it had something that gave me so much glee.

Though till we met, we would've had a talk

it used to make feel that beside me, I saw you walk.


At times, we might have had a quarrel

later my feelings of regret were always real.

It was always, a kind of unexplained fear

that used to be there, when from you, I didn’t hear.


Life seems, to me, lost all its zest

mainly due to you, putting me under this test.

Though at a distance, I still see you sit

but when I don’t get to hear, I can’t bear it.


What about me, I’ll never know in the mind

but I know that my life has become blind.

I guess life has become a torture to face and live

and only God can think me to redeem and forgive.


So sweetie, if you were to come back to my life

wish that there wouldn’t be any more strife.

Instead of despair and issues to create fuss

let their be something that life can give us.